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Eleanor Tan Rou Ying, bystander of planet Earth.
Turned 16 this year on 20th April.
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A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain.

Monday, November 30, 2009 @ 8:10 PM

Going to sleepover at Nelle's place tomorrow, whoohoo. Finally a time to take my own pictures, I don't like depending on other people to take them cause it usually takes ages. Gonna go swimming and get a tan if the clouds are willing to be nice to us tomorrow! And other certain issues, coughs. (looks at Nelle). C:

Which reminds me: BERNARD ONGGGG. I want zeh picturez ploise. >:(

Omt, Lim Wai Wai just told me something so shocking over MSN!!!! Ahaha I have my own share of shocking things to tell her and Nelle tomorrow. Just hope they don't strangle me or something.

I refuse to miss baby right now, hmph. (crosses fingers)

Just now was... Unbelievable. Looking at it now, it's just, well. It leaves me utterly speechless. Until now I'm questioning myself what would've happened if you hadn't turned up.

Oh well, since you did. I love you, stupid. <3

Rara: Relinked!
Su Xian: Lol, next time just go straight to the Cathay webbie to check for movies and their timings la.
Joanna: Okehhhh. So are you going?! :D
Janelle: Aw, thanks girl. :) See you moro!

@ 1:04 PM

http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=7855122%22

Totally worth 6 minutes and 19 seconds of your life.

Running away from the streets we knew.

Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 9:29 PM

Minus the DA logo, I think this is damn awesome.

Anyway.

Thank you Nelle Tan for bothering to ask if I was alright last night! <3

Soooo yea. Today.

Supposed to go to church with mum and bro in the morning, but apparently bro yelled my name 5 times to no avail (According to my mum), so the both of them decided to leave without me. (I'll tell you a secret though: I was actually already half-awake by the fifth time. I just pretended to be asleep to avoid going to church at all, LOL. Thank goodness he never ever comes here.) Gramma brought me to see the doctor, then blablabla went home and watched Hot Shot.

Btw, I can't believe Jie Er is Qiu Gui la, ohmytian?!

Getting back.

Talked to the idiot for awhile in the afternoon. Stupid Goh Jin You said he's going to meet me every single day that I'm free on this coming week. -.- We'll see what happens. But I have something to announce!!!

HE HAS FINALLY GOTTEN BORED OF DOTA!!!!

老天爷真的有眼.

Finally went for the manicure with my mum at 3+PM. Smudged my middle finger twice, my right big toe once and apologised to the person like mad. Nothing new leaaa. Then cabbed to Ehub to have dinner at NYNY and bought crap at Fair Price. Bought a shitload of instant and cup noodles and junk food. C: No more skipping meals when I'm at home!

Argh, I just remembered dad's coming back from Taiwan today, which means he'll be bringing back ~~more~~ cup noodles for us again. Uh oh.

Bye.

You were the reason.(emphasise on the were)

Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 6:56 PM

Right, here's a proper update for the sake of... Updating.

1) Went to ton with Bern and Eric yesterday. And that's all I'm saying til I get pictures, heh.

2) Apparently, there's xiyao tomorrow. Didn't know, wth. -_- I'm stuck with church, blah. It's like xiyao vs church. I guess I'll maybe attend xy next term? Personally, I'd rather go for xiyao than church any day (No competition, please). Somemore I miss stupid kukus like Nelle, Yi Yun and Rosslynn. :( And you two Hsters, sorry I haven't been replying your texts.. Really not in the mood. Nelle: I'm okay with having the sleepover on Tuesday.

3) Haven't eaten since 5+ this morning, and that was only half of Bern's hashbrown, lol. How is it that when people're feeling down, they tend to eat more while I don't want to eat at all. I tried bringing myself to eat a slice of bread just now, but the sight of it made me want to throw up.

4) JOANNA TAY TARIK, ARE YOU ATTENDING AWE'S OUTING ON THE 4TH?????

5) Does anyone wanna go swimming???!!!

6) I've been dreading the GZ trip like mad ever since my mum told me I had to pack track shoes to go jogging in the morning when I'm there. FML. Having to face cheena people every single day for 8 whole days is bad enough, thank you.

7) There's 桃花小妹 tonight!!!

8) I feel like getting a star... Somewhere.

Shingz my life.

Drained.

@ 4:42 PM

Just went to reread some of my archives, and now I'm feeling so pissed with myself. I am never, going to let my world revolve around one person again.

At least, I'll try not to.

Went to delete quite a lot of such entries, though. Such a gesture sure brought a lot of unexpected satisfaction. It just suddenly felt damn redundant to keep them there, since it's not like you'd actually bother to go reread them.

Plus, looking at them now, I can no longer bring myself to be happy.

By the way, that video I made for our third month. Have you even watched it?

I dread the answer.

I wonder if you even bother looking at your birthday present anymore. Right now, I'd be glad to just set the whole box on fire for you. Tear the letter to shreds in front of your eyes. Watch everything inside melt into liquid and burn to ashes.

I know it was all my fault just now, but even I'm finally getting tired. Like, mentally exhausted. Yet whenever I think of giving up, I know I don't want to. Such irony. I can't even hate you properly without feeling really weird after only a short while, wth. Just for once I wish you'd be the one to piece up everything for us even though I'm in the wrong. Or just tell me everything's going to be alright.

But then you'd probably say I'm being ridiculous or selfish or something again. Then in the end, it'll still be down to me.

P.S. It is at times like this I hate it that you come here.

P.P.S. To readers: Sorry if this whole post sounds/sounded like gibberish to you.

To walk within the lines would make life so boring.

Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 6:15 PM

Haven't really been motivated to blog recently. Life has been so mundane. And to add oil to the fire, I'm having trouble opening the Audi in my com again. -_- (sighs loudly)

Went out with baby yesterday after his work to watch:
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I suddenly feel like laughing at Su Xian because she planned to watch this on AWE's upcoming last guild outing, and she was telling me how she only wanted to watch it wayyyy after 3rd of Dec cause of the crazy amount of people who'll prolly be watching it too. Little does she know that many of the Cathay cinemas all over Singapore are already airing it, lmao. C:

So anyway, I'd only rate the movie 3/5. I guess it's mainly because I've already read the book, and it's only a natural reaction if I keep using it to gage the movie (FYL if you disagree). In fact, I think I would've been pretty lost if I hadn't depended on the book. Maybe my hearing's deproving, or perhaps baby was too distracting (ahem), but I had to half-guess what R.P and some of the other characters were saying throughout the movie.

Ooohhhh but Taylor Lautner was so hot when he had his hair short!!! Plus, there're more fighting scenes this time, so overall the movie's kinda worth your money. Unless you hate Matrix, don't like slow music and abhor girls who emo over the loss of pale-looking people with funny bed head like hairstyles who claim themselves to be vampires (in the movie).

But then despite all of those, I'd ask you:

HELLO, IS THIS NOT ENOUGH REASON FOR YOU TO WATCH IT ALREADY?

I rest my case. :)

Walked around for awhile after the movie, but my heels were killing me and baby was having issues with his stomach again, so we went home.

Spent the whole of today watching Hot Shot, going to ton with Eric and Bern and Butter later. Just remembered that I have to get some sleep later since Mum's dragging me to go for a manicure with her tomorrow at 11AM (I swear it wasn't my idea this time) and meet baby sometime later. ~~Hope tomorrow I'll finally have the whole day with him, hmph.~~

CRAVING FOR NICE PASTA AND HAAGEN DAZS ICE-CREAM. :(

Warning: Don't ever think of trying Pastamania's Bacon Cheese Crumble thing. It is absolutely wonderful.

...

You know what I mean.

Janelle: Aha, hi-5.
Joanna: I'm not sure, I forgot already. :/ But it's really damnnnn cute. If you don't want it, I think I may actually go buy it for myself, LOL. AHHH I DON'T HAVE AUDI IN MY COM AGAIN. T_T Ty asking Lala, he helped me with mine. C: She's only nice to a certain extent!!! WHEN ARE WE GOING OUT? Oh and yea, P.A suck balls!
Selene: Hi! Who dosen't? :D
Yi Yun: I see. Thanks for the explanation ah. :]
Su Xian: Sua ku la you! LOL.

Pinning the tail on the jackass.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 11:44 PM

Wanted to prank call Ron ah pek just now, only to remember he's only coming out on Thursday, lol. -_- He's one of the rare people who can out-talk me, I tell youuuu. Last night at 1+AM, I accidentally muted him for nearly 10 minutes (I think) without knowing, and cause I was so tired I just gave monosyllable replies to whatever he said when actually all he would've heard was silence anyway and he just continued talking all the way, LOL!!!! (Praying like mad he'll never coming here since until now he has no idea.)

I guess I'll be meeting baby tomorrow, but it's not going to be much la. 3+ hours? Plus the time he'll need to get home? Lmao. Whatever la. Don't even get me started on today, pfft. (Okay, not much of a link. But I am so annoyed can?! I'll do the regretting tomorrow, right now I just need to vent.)

Prima Deli has awesome marble cake. Talk about learning something new everyday.

Hello there, Mr Calorie.

Plans, plans, plans. I finally have plans. Whoopdeedoo.

I'm truly holy, but now I'm confined to this ground.

@ 9:18 PM

Y'know, for once I wished that Singapore did broadcast shows slower than other countries. Of all shows they decided to air at the same time as Taiwan, did it have to be 桃花小妹??!! >:(

Stuck at episode 6 on Youtube, nonsense la. The next episode is going to be soooo crucial (Until episode 8 comes out, that is.). Haven't been this excited about any Asian drama since 命中注定我爱你, which isn't very long ago, but I hardly go crazy over ANY Asian drama so you get my point.

On the bright side - I never knew that Ji Yong (G-Dragon) is only 21 this year leh!!!!!!! I finally bothered to finish up the whole chunk of info about them on Wiki just now, and (whistles), I'm glad that of all the Asian bands/singers I finally decided to become obsessed with, it's them.

Favourite:

I guess he dosen't look like Eric after all.

If Lady Gaga's kid's first word happens to be Mama or Dada, either way she's going to be "My kid acknowledged me!".

Going to Sentosa this Friday, I think! I guess the only thing I can do is hope the sky dosen't decide to cry or throw tantrums.

I need the tan, God. Please. Grant. Me. A. Tan.

Two is DEFINITELY better than one.

Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 8:49 PM

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Finally, a song that completely describes how I feel from the start til the end.

I think Boys Like Girls have just gained themselves another die-hard fan.

@ 8:12 PM

I'm so sick of the holidays. I wanna go out and do something. Not having anything to do does something to people. Just now was a good example: I got emotional over a cartoon. And of all cartoons, it was Ben10. Lol. -_-

So anyway, finally cut and dyed my hair. And now I have to go back to church on Sundays because my mum blackmailed me by saying the only way she was going to pay for the dying of my hair was if I obviously, went back to church.

Don't get me wrong. Church is fine by me. But the sermons are another story. Plus I have to get up even earlier than I did for xiyao classes, argh.

I wonder what baby's doing. I wonder if he knows that I miss him. :(

Moving on.

You know, it's kinda sad when one of your favourite bloggers decides to stop blogging properly.

I'm talking about http://underage-girl.blogspot.com/.

I've always liked reading her blog ever since JW introduced it to me last year, mainly because she's only one year older than me, the least difference in age compared to most of the other famous bloggers that I actually know of.

I don't know leaaa, I just felt like sharing that with you guys.

Off to do nothing again.

Sunday, November 22, 2009 @ 10:53 PM

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I say I wanna blow you away.

Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 11:40 PM

THINGS I NEED TO DO:

1) Get rid of all my old school books/notes I don't want to ever see again.

2) Hangup all the clothes on the chair and the ones I just bought on Thursday.

3) Find another job, wteff.

4) Plan packing list for GZ trip.

5) Stop thinking about baby so much.

6) Stop dreading GZ trip so much.

7) Stop being too lazy to eat and skipping meals.

8) Get a hair cut.

9) BECOME WS WHILE BERN IS GONE, HAHAHA.

More to come when I can actually think.

Went out with baby today at Bugis. Was feeling all sian and everything, Idk why. Watched Paranormal Activity, lousiest yet one of the freakiest horror movies I've ever watched, if you can even deem it as horror in the first place. The ending was #!@$#@$@#$, in a bad way. Baby liked it a lot though. C: Silly person. ♡♡♡♡

Oh and anyway, the idiot went to foil my Christmas-present-to-him plan, walao. >:( He's always doing that! At this rate, if we ever get married (Not saying we definitely will, but one can dream la.), things between us are going to be so... Interestingly boring, LOL. Such an oxymoron.

Oxymoron. Nice word.

Haha whatever, carrying on.

Went to Messy to get his new cardigan (He left his old one in Grandlink. Such awesome similarities right.). I like! Finally something that's not black and white, but white and black. LOL!!! But seriously, the norm for his cardigans are usually black with white stripes. The one he bought was white with black stripes. :D (kua kua kua)

So basically, today was:

Met baby at his house bus-stop > Bussed to Bedok MRT > Trained to Bugis > Bought tickets for movie > Walked around and had lunch > Went for movie > Sat at the area beside the fountain for fresh air, coughs. > Trained to Dhoby to lan at Jcube > Jcube sucked balls, stupid lag kept popping out from nowhere. Plus they charged us $2 each when we only played for half an hour. > Trained to Bedok MRT > Went home alone since baby was having issues with his stomach and he was tired (Or so he said, since he's been playing DOTA for at least an hour, hmph.).

He said he's going to make it up to me next week though, hohoho!!! He'd better, or he shall owe me a lifetime supply of jellybeans.

Gonna rot at home tomorrow, wa piang eh. Super broke la. >:(

Alright, ending here.

Outz.

I need a new keyboard.

@ 11:43 AM

Looks like the DSLR's gonna have to wait.

[edit]~~Working tomorrow, whoo. Shan't tell you as what or where, heh. C: I'm not even sure if I still want to continue with the job after tomorrow. We'll see.~~ Boss called to cancel, apparently something went wrong. LOL. Rotting at home already la.[/edit]

Yesterday:

Met up with Bernard and Eric at Marsiling after lalalaing at Jurong East.

Trained to Yishun > Ate at the Mac beside Chambers > Went to Chambers > Found out that Chambers keyboard is effed up > Moved to another lan near Chambers > Had supper and played truth or dare at some Tau Huey shop near the other lan > Cabbed home cause I missed the last bus.

I have something to whine about again!!!

At the second lanshop:

It's either the tables or too high, or the chairs are just too frigging short. (Between you and me, I'd blame the tables.) And that's not the worst you knowwww. They only had plastic chairs that neither went UP nor DOWN, so can you imagine my agony when I was playing Beatup?! In the end I had to go to the counter to ask for another chair to stack them up. Embarrassing, much. It was so obvious that all the guy at the counter wanted to do was hide somewhere and lhao when I approached him. :/

On the bright side, even Bern was complaining about how short the chairs were. Makes me feel a lil better, hahaha. (He's close to 180cm)

Truth or dare with the both of them was so funnyyy. A lot of M18 content, HAHAHA. Never knew that Eric was so saddistic, he definitely beats Keith hands down.

Overall, had a lot of fun with the both of them la. :D

Bye.

P.S. I HAVE AUDI IN MY COM AGAIN!!!!!

Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 11:48 AM

Funniest thing I have ever heard that has anything to do with education.

And the teacher was fascinated. She went over to her and said, "What're you drawing?", and the girl said, "I'm drawing a picture of God.". And the teacher said, "But nobody knows what God looks like.". And the girl said, "They would in a minute."

Stay with me, or watch me bleed.

Thursday, November 19, 2009 @ 8:07 PM

Just now was absolutely crazy. Camped inside F21 for close to two hours cause I didn't want my mum and bro to start whining, so I sent them off to go shop for my bro's stuff. I was really frustrated at first since there was no size S for so many of the things I wanted, so I started walking to random corners of the shop. Ended up finding so many things that I had to leave a stack with the counter a bit after the first hour and continue looking. C:

Don't bother asking for the final value I spent there. Lets just say, my mother wasn't ecstatic. I'm just glad she didn't grumble or anything today. Yessah.

Went to eat at Sushi Tei. I love cold soba! <3

Flew to Top Shop after that. Got somemore stuff from there, then went home.

Sidetrack: This is how long my fringe is now. (It's actually a bit longer, I had to move it a bit so I could see where I was aiming the camera at.)

And my current favourite:

Tomorrow I'm going to Jurong East on my own. :( Butttt I'm FINALLY going to get my hair cut after I've settled my whatever over there, so yay!

Abrupt end here.

To know your name.

@ 1:05 PM

I'm soooooo sleepyyyyy.

Talked on the phone with baby til 2+AM yesterday, new record! (For him anyway) Got high and sang songs with him. LOL.

Well. It actually isn't much of a record, since he was playing DOTA the whole time we were talking. But at least he did bother to talk (most of the time), so yea. Vast improvement. -nods head-

Waiting for mum to get ready to bring bro and I to Vivo. I'm so tired, I don't even feel like stepping out of the house. -_- The rain isn't helping. It's making the whole house look so dark and... Sleep inducing.

Kaye, mum's done already. Bye!

Zarinar: It's okay. :)
Teng Kiat: Hai.
Bernard: Yea, okay. :)
Zi Xian: You have good taste worz, haha.
Yi Yun: Why does one band have so many alternate names? :O

Alienz.